haay.
haay.. I am thankful that at least little by little, I’m picking up myself. Thought I will be happy– and that’s what I really wanted to have. A life with there’s a little complication. (cause I was) AND NOW, I am putting it in place..one by one.. gradually. I don’t want to give up now what makes me busy, what makes me tired, what gives me a 10hour of not thinking it over again–my work. I am forced to smile, and i love what I do. It makes me happy. ..and when I go home, though tired a kiss from my naughty but very intelligent daughter gives me a fulfillment. That if I still don’t have my DIPLOMA with me, a MAN that would stand for us, and my COFFEE MASTER title (haha!) kiddin’– she made me fill fulfilled. Seeing her singing barney’s song (I love this line: "I love you, You love me WE’RE HAPPY FAMILY!") is such a bliss in my ears. yeah, I love YOU, YOU love me, WE’RE HAPPY FAMILY (mom and czarlyse is really a happy family)
I wanted to learn to be selfish, to be self-centered. I let go of my part that made me separate to some but now, I wanted to learn again how. For being a selfish, it will teach ME to LOVE MYSELF more, it will release me from all my anxities from a failed relationship. BITTER? nah, I will teach myself how. and to forget.
to my friends: Thanks for the wonderful advices when he dumped me. first time in my life that I was thrown away, and hey doesn’t he know that it’s Me that he threw away?
November 9th, 2008 at 10:24 am
you do know that that mom and czarlyse family includes a ME, RECEL and others whom you could tap at any given time. let her sing it - it’s true. because if the the family includes such a father she would be LYING when she sings it.